JAR OF HEARTS
-CHRISTINA PERRI-

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half-alive
Now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long
Just to feel alright
Remember how to put back
The light in my eyes

I wish I had missed
The first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back you don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

scrutinizing works and self discovery

have not update my blog of late, being due to the hectic working schedule and in the need of some time for myself to rediscover certain things in my life.
being adjusting may not seems simple, more so to 'adjusted' to a new way of life can be vulnerable sometimes.
Have not seen my other half close to 2 months now and wondering if she is coping fine or otherwise. i really hope she can take this current lifestyle as temporary rather than thinking its gonna be a lifetime things.
I have move most of my dragging past and to be able to recuperate, it seems ages. but it does not stop me from thinking and complaining about the struggle i need to encounter, maybe it is just a way for me to refine something which i am suppose to gain greater mileage later of my life.
I do admit that im a boring person, how much reflections of life can really works for me if things still stagnated as it seems to be but with a more approachable manner can be assume it is in a positive mode.
Closing to year end struggle, have i achieve much for the last 9 months? some mileage, but maybe its seems like a single step from my other half. I can't complain for her rant, as she needs security of course, as well as certain extend of life insurance as we are both reaching the age of marriage, where certain degree of compromise need to be adjusted being in a relationship status.
Im thankful to GOD, for her patient, for her willingness and her struggle for betterment throughout our year plus relationship.
Please allow me to make good use of current moment to enhance what needs to be and through time (again and again i say that), we gonna reach there, the struggle is painful but it will make us treasure more for every effort and time we are not being able to make up, we shall be there wanting each other more.
I love you and GOD bless us
Kenny Chong

My Birthday :)

THE WAY YOU LOVE ME - FAITH HILL

If I could grant
You one wish
I'd wish you could see the way you kiss
Ooh, I love watching you
Baby
When you're driving me crazy

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love

It's not right
It's not fair
What you're missing over there
Someday I'll find a way to show you
Just how lucky I am to know you

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me

You're the million reasons why
There's love reflecting in my eyes

Ooh, I love the way you
Love the way you love me
There's nowhere else I'd rather be
Ooh, to feel the way I feel with your arms around me
I only wish that you could see the way you love me
The way you love me
The way you love me

Ooh, the way you love me
The way you love me

Now And Then - Blackmore's night

NOW AND THEN
The past is so familiar
But that's why you couldn't stay
Too many ghosts, too many haunted dreams
Beside you were built to find your own way...
But after all these years, I thought we'd still hold on
But when I reach for you and search your eyes
I see you've already gone...
That's OK
I'll be fine
I've got myself, I'll heal in time
But when you leave just remember what we had...
There's more to life than just you
I may cry but I'll make it through
And I know that the sun will shine again
Though I may think of you now and then...
Can't do a thing with ashes
But throw them to the wind...
Though this heart may be in pieces now
You know I'll build it up again and
I'll come back stronger than I ever did before
Just don't turn around when you walk out that door...
That's OK
I'll be fine
I've got myself, I'll heal in time...b ut when you leave just remember what we had...
There's more to life than just you
I may cry but I'll make it through
And even though our stories at the end
I still may think of you now and then...

MICHAEL BUBLE - END OF MAY

Golden haze,
Another morning feels like yesterday.
End of may..
Now you're gone and there's still bills to pay.
And you know it doesn't help to make believe, you're sitting next to me.
...It doesn't help, to make believe that you are right behind me
Saying it's okay.

Longer days,
More time to sit and watch the pendulum sway.
In quiet rage I'm staring at this empty notebook page.
In times like these you feel like you are done with feeling,
You feel you want to stop the pain from healing
Because you feel like you're the only one who's ever felt this way.

Some days in a daze, there's brighter days.
Funny how the feeling never stays,
But I know I'll have to come to terms when I'm awake,
Thinking about you is the icing on the cake.
Makes me realize the fact you're gone for good for goodness sake.

Golden haze, another morning feels like yesterday.
End of may, a year is gone and I still feel this way,
When we meet again I'll ask you how you're doing
And you'll say fine and ask me how I'm doing

And then I'll lie and I'll say ordinary, It's just an ordinary day.

Happy Mother's Day, mama

I know how much i have disappointed you,
For you looking up towards my well being,
my rocky journey of life,
You forgo lot of good things in life,
just to make sure that i am doing good in life,
you confront our relative when i fail badly,
when i don't even think hard for all my bad deed,
for all the silly mistakes that i have made,
you ensure brothers and sisters reached me,
even though i am drifting apart,
you savage and behold this family after daddy's passing,
for all you think about is the love for us and for me,
sometimes, i just know i do not know how to express myself to others,
which is so true, as you know i am a very introvert person when it comes to meeting people,
how much you have protected me for whoever I am, for whatever situation i am embroiled into,
i caused you much pain and sorrow, as sometimes I admit I am rebellious and stubborn,
throughout everything, I am really sorry if i hurt you deep,
I learned along this journey of life, sometimes it is just that i am really sad and do not know how to confront you for many things in life,
I keep things by myself and i do not know how to tell,
the reason for this blog is one of the way or another tell and express many things that have lingers in my mind, that sometimes you find hard to understand what i want to do in life,
failure has certainly makes me a little lost in my direction of life,
the consequences of the failure has certainly degrading my morale and spirit of pursuance, yet i am pursuing further, for i know, journey of life does not end just of a battle, i pledge to continue more battle, my aim is to win a war, for what i think losing battles is nothing more than to lose a war,
I am making up of my past half decade, doing something which i am still uphold with it, this time, I am more cautious, and towards everything i come across,
I do not know if time allows me to share our journey, but rest assure for one thing,
I am upholding daddy's surname, and i cannot afford more time and money to repeat the same mistake,
I am walking the path of right, I leave the rocky experience behind and vow to do it better,
I never assure you because i can never know what beholds the path I am going through, leading me towards the light or towards the dark tunnel, I hold faith to you and late daddy, that i am walking towards the light path,

OF ALL, I AM DEEP HEARTEDLY SAYING TO YOU MAMA, I AM SORRY, I MAKE YOU UNHAPPY, LET ME PROVE TO YOU, I AM A CHANGED PERSON; FOR BETTERMENT AND I TRUTHFULLY PRAY YOU HAVE THE GREATEST HEALTH TO SEE YOUR SON AS A NOBLE MAN AND YOU HAVE DO A GREAT JOB IN BRINGING UP THE BUBBLY 5 OF US A TRULY NOBLE MAN AND WOMAN OF THIS COMMUNITY WORLD!

LOVE YOU ALOT AND FOREVER ALWAYS,

KOOK PHONG